My Last Blog

It is hard to believe that this is going to be my last blog. It seems like this year has just flown by. I feel like I should be just completing my blogs for the month of September. Junior year has been one of the greatest years so far. None of my classes were extremely difficult. I didn't have any also student teachers like last year (aka Myrtle the turtle). There were definitely many new experiences this year and I got to be involved in a lot more things than last year. For example there was Beta club and NHS. This was my first year that I had my license for a full year and it was very nice to have that freedom. This year I also kind of got my first job teaching piano lessons. I have made some nice extra money and it something that I actually enjoy doing. There have also been some big changes in my life. The main change being that I am no longer dancing with Owensboro Dance Theatre. I know now that it has definitely been a change for the better. I have started Eaglettes for next year and I can already tell that it is going to be a lot less stress than ODT. I have also had some great accomplishments this year. The main one being making Governor's Scholar Program. I can't wait until this summer. Junior year was definitely a great year but I can't wait to be a senior. Starbucks is amazing!!!!

Prom

So this will be my last blog of the year for prom. It is hard to believe that it could go by so fast. There have been numerous hours of work that went into prom and it is all over in a flash. Getting up early that morning to decorate wasn't really all that much fun. Especially since I was stuck hanging the gossamer once again. It seemed to look a lot better than it did last year though. After I got done decorating the rest of the day flew by. Before I knew it, it was time to go and get my make up and hair done. It was really nice for someone else to do my make up so that I didn't have to worry about it. It was also a nice to surprise when I got my hair and make up done with an ex dancer whom I hadn't seen in a while. After my hair and make up appointment before I knew it Christopher was at my house. We took like a zillion pictures and then we had to go to Lee's house and eat. There were a lot of people at her house. The food was delicious. When we finally arrived at the dance the three hours at the dance flew by. I felt like I barely even got to see that many people. Before I knew it it was already eleven o clock. Even though the weather wasn't the greatest,prom lived up to all my expectations.

AP US History Test

I just got done taking about a three hour test. A three hour test is long enough when you know everything. However, it is especially long when you don't know that much of what you are being tested over. The multiple choice section of the test wasn't that bad because I had at least a one in four chance of choosing the right answer. Even though they do take off a 1/4 of a point for everyone that you get wrong. So I had to decide when I wanted to guess and when I had absolutely no clue at all. The writting section of the test was the absolute worst. Even if you had no clue at all you just had to make up something. The writing section seemed to last forever. I though that my hand was going to fall off before I got done. For the DBQ I could at least use the documents to make it sound like I semi know what I am doing. However on the free response questions if you didn't know any of the answers you just had to make something up....which is exactly what I did. The best part of the test is the poem that I wrote Mr. Fuller. I can't wait until I get my test booklet back and he gets to read it. Going to lunch afterwards was nice to. I pretty much paid $86 to get a piece of paper (Commonwealth Diploma).

It's three days away!!!

It is hard to believe that prom is only three days away. I feel like there is so much to be done in such a short amount of time. It is going to be a crazy last three days. Friday Chris has to go and pick up his tux and I have this fear that they are going to give him the wrong color. The tux store I am sure will be crazy. I am glad that I don't have to go and do that. Saturday is going to be a day of mad chaos. There is a large chance of rain and that makes me very upset. That morning I have to go and help decorate which I am dreading. I don't want to have to deal with the prom sponsors and the decorations that I don't really even like (I have finally gotten over the crappy cheap decorations). Then as soon as I get done I have to go to the Creme and get some coffee (hopefully the caffeine will last most of the day). After that I have to rush home so that I can wash my hair before I go to the salon. Then I have to go to the salon and get my hair and make up done. Then I have to rush home and get ready because then Chris is coming over to take pictures outside which it will be raining and so I don't know where we will take pictures and that is another disaster. So that is enough of venting about how much I have to do for prom. I can't wait!!! Starbucks is the best!!!

Prom is almost here!

It is hard to believe that prom is almost finally here. I feel like ever since I started planning prom it felt like it was a long ways away. I never thought that it would finally get here. However I do know that it is almost here because I had a nightmare about it last night. As large events get closer I seem to always have nightmares about them going awry. This was probably the worst nightmare ever though. So my date was coming over to my house and he forgot to pick up the flowers. So I had to take pictures without flowers but that wasn't the worst part. He wasn't wearing his tux. He just kept saying that he didn't feel like putting it on and I couldn't understand why not because he has been really excited about taking pictures with me in his tux. So i reluctantly take pictures with him in jeans because I told him that he was going to put his tux on later so then when we went to dinner he didn't even want to be there. He wasn't being his normal talkative self and it was just really awkward because I was like having a conversation with myself. Then when we went to the dance we wouldn't even dance with me that much. Luckily after that I woke up from the nightmare. I almost started crying because it felt so real. Even though I had that terrible nightmare I am still really excited about prom. It is going to be so much fun! Starbucks + me= LOVE!

Could I possibly miss it?

It has been almost a month since I have last danced. That is probably the longest time that I have ever gone without dancing. I can't even remember a time that I went even two weeks without dancing. However, I don't miss ODT at all. That is what some people don't understand that ODT and dance are two different things. Dancing has always been something that I have loved and will continue to do. Dance is a way that I can escape all of the stress and just think about nothing except dance. However ODT was no longer a good thing. It was just a lot of stress and it made dancing not fun at all. When I here about all of the drama that is going on at the studio it just reaffirms that I made the right decision. Apparently one of the dance teachers decided that the class from 10-12 on Saturday mornings wasn't long enough. That class was awful anyways but she decided to extend it to 9:30 - 12:00. Even hadn't already quit that might have done me in. Mrs. Johnson has yet to make any changes and the girls are just more and more miserable. She will be really surprised when she has a lot less girls audition. So even though I do miss dancing I don't miss ODT. I think I will have to take dance classes somewhere else but I definitely will not be returning to ODT. I love Starbucks!!!!

I have been accepted!!!

I am so glad that the very long wait is over. Ever since I turned in my application in December I have been wondering whether or not I would get in to GSP. There is no more wondering now that I know that I got in!! The day that I knew the letter would arrive at school telling the guidance counselor who was accepted I could barely concentrate on school work. I even put rings on 100 key chains for prom during my 1st block class because I had to do something to occupy my time. It seemed like the minutes were going by like hours. I knew that the mail was delivered during second block. So during second block I went up to the front office and watched the office aides sort through the mail. Of course the gsp letter was at the bottom of the mail. As soon as I saw the letter I wanted to grab it but I knew that I couldn't do that. So I ran to Mr. Tomes office and told him that the letter arrived. He told me that I could go get it for him. So I ran and got the letter and gave it to him. He read the letter but wouldn't tell me the results yet because he said that wasn't fair. So I had to wait another fifteen minutes for him to type out an e-mail to everyone who applied. As soon as I saw my name on the list I just felt a huge since of relief since I had been accepted. I had been trying to act like I didn't care whether or not I got in but the truth was that I actually cared a lot! Starbucks is awesome!!!

Spring Break

This year Spring Break was really fun even though we didn't go the same place that we normally do. When we go to Florida we normally go to St. Augustine which I love because there is a private beach club and amazing shopping. However, this year my mother wanted to travel somewhere closer so we went to Perdido Key. Perdido Key is between gulf shore and ft. walton beach. I enjoy vacations in Florida but they aren't my favorite because I don't really like to eat seafood or sushi. My mom and sister love seafood and sushi so for lunch and dinner we normally go to a sushi or seafood restaurant. Just about every meal I ate a chicken sandwich. Needless to say I don't want to eat a chicken sandwich for a while. The beach on the gulf was pretty nice even though I did get burnt the first day and it was cloudy. Luckily, this year I didn't get sun poisoning though. The shopping wasn't that great which was kind of depressing. There is never a dull moment on vacation since it is a girls only trip. My grandma seems to always keep everyone laughing. Overall it was a good trip but I can't wait until next year because I get to pick where we go. I <3 Starbucks!!!

Spring Break is near.....yay!

Spring break is almost here!!! This time next week I will be sitting on the beach relaxing. It will be a much needed break. It seems like so much has happened in the last couple of months that I don't even know how I survived. There has been so much change in my life. I have had a stress fracture, couldn't dance, started dancing again, quit dancing, and then became an eaglette. It makes me tired just thinking about everything that has happened. It will be really nice to get away and relax. I just want to be able to sit on the beach and not have to worry about anything except getting a tan. Of course a little shopping would be nice. I am always up for that. This year we are going some place that we have never been before so it will definitely be interesting. At least it is closer so it won't be that long of a drive because that is always the worst part. When we get back from Florida I get to go pick up my prom dress from being altered so that is also very exciting. It feels like it has been so long since I have seen it that I almost forgot what it looked like. When I get back from Spring Break it will be total chaos. School will almost be ending and prom will be less than a month away. Starbucks makes the world go round :)

Cup Stacking 101

This year I had the opportunity to experience something very different, a cup stacking tournament. I had heard that it was a sport but I didn't realize how intense it was. I was a judge for the tournament. The tournament consisted of mainly elementary aged competitors. Let me tell you they could stack cups fast. I was amazed at just how fast their hands could move. This kids were only in elementary school but they were very serious about this tournament. Many of the kids were trying to break world records. There was one Chinese kid who was a member of team USA. He could do a 3-3-3 in about one second. (A 3-3-3 is where the kids stack 3 sets of 3 cups and then take them down.) His hands moved so fast that there was no time to find any errors. I was glad that I didn't have to judge him but instead I just got to watch. As a judge I had to make sure that the kids stacked the cups properly. Sometimes I felt so bad when I had to tell the kids that they stacked the cups wrong and that it was going to have to be a scratch. Luckily, most kids were very understanding and didn't get upset when I told them they did it wrong. However, one judge told a girl that it was a scratch and she started crying and her parents got really upset. Being a judge wasn't the easiest thing to do but it was definitely very interesting. Starbucks is amazing!!!!

This could be the start of something new......

High School Musicale is finally over!!! I can now officially be done with Owensboro Dance Theatre. The show was on Saturday night and my sister did great in the show. However I didn't realize how boring the shows actually were for the audience members. I am pleased to announce that Sunday afternoon my sister gave her resignation to Mrs. Johnson. She is no longer a part of Owensboro Dance Theatre or Joy Johnson's Dance Studio. This decision was not one that was easy for her. Her decision had nothing to do with mine. Even though I had already quit I supported her still being there. She decided all on her own that it was not a place that she wanted to be anymore. Taylor makes the fifth person that has quit Owensboro Dance Theatre this year. Maybe Joy Johnson will eventually get the message that something is wrong, but she probably won't. However those problems no longer concern me which is kind of nice. Now that my sister and I have more free time we are actually going to be able to do more things. No longer are either of us going to have the excuse that we can't do something because of dance. Even though I had quit earlier than my sister I still had to hear about all of the drama at the studio from my sister. Well I won't have to anymore I am going to finally be able to move on completely to life after ODT. I <3 Starbucks!!!

Where is the teacher?

I am sure that everyone has already heard the story of the class that was without a teacher. However no one really knows what it was like. People may have thought that we didn't tell anyone because we wanted to be by ourselves. That may be partly true but we honestly thought that the substitute was going to eventually return. When we arrived at class we expected the substitute to show up at any time but after about ten minutes we were getting worried. We thought that maybe they got the lunch shifts mixed up. We figured that could be possible to happen so we took attendance and turned it in to the front office because we did not want the substitute to get in trouble. Then we put in the movie that we knew we should finish. We watched the movie like we were supposed to until it was time for lunch. We didn't leave early for lunch and we kept the door unlocked in case the substitute returned. After we got back from lunch we expected the substitute to be in the class but they weren't there. So we just continued to watch the movie like we were supposed to. After about thirty minutes we realized that the substitute was not returning. At that point we had no idea what we should do. We didn't know if we were going to get in trouble for not telling anyone sooner so we decided to wait until after class. Lets just say that the vice principal wasn't to happy with that substitute. Last I heard that day the substitute was still MIA. Starbucks is the best :)

The first time I drove a car

Before I got my permit I had driven a car around on my street and in a parking lot but I don't really count that as the first time that I have driven a car. Driving in a parking lot or a deserted street is completely different than driving on a street filled with other cars and stoplights. The first time that I actually drove a car was right after I received my permit. I asked my mom for the keys and she gave them to me, and that was a huge mistake. I realized that I had no clue what I was doing. I didn't even know which way to push the turning signals. I was so confused because I thought that driving looked so easy and the driving that I had done before had been easy. The distance between downtown and Starbucks is not that far but that day it seemed like forever. I honestly believe that my mom thought we were going to die before we made it to Starbucks. However as usual I wanted Starbucks so badly that I had the will to make it there. We made it there alive but my mom drove me back to school. My first time driving is a very memorable experience. I love Starbucks!!!!

We are all in this together....or not

Yesterday I went down to the River Park Center to film for my community story on High School Musicale. This is Owensboro Dance Theatre's Spring production. This is the show that I was supposed to perform in before I quit ODT. I was a little hesitant to even do the story on ODT. I wasn't for sure how I would feel. I didn't know whether I would wish I was up there on stage or if I would even start crying. However, I didn't feel sad at all. As I watched some of the girls on stage that were being yelled at I realized that I didn't miss all of the stress at all. It was great to get to see some of the younger girls that I hadn't seen since I quit. For example when I went into the Apprentice company dressing room to interview a few of the girls I was greeted with everyone saying that they missed me. It felt good to know that the Apprentice Company missed me because I know that they copmany doesn't feel that way. Most of the girls are bitter because I can do what I want now that I am not dancing. It is like they are jealous of my freedom. Hardly any of the company girls would even talk to me and if they did it was just like a hello. That's ok though because I no longer have to worry about all of the drama and I can enjoy my life unlike the rest of the miserable dancers. :) Starbucks is still amazing!!

Marietta Diner

Last weekend at Jazz on Tap in Atlanta I went and ate at the Marietta Diner. It has sort of become like a tradition on Friday night to eat at the diner. Anytime we are in Atlanta or even near Atlanta we have to stop at the diner. We even stopped at the diner going to Florida for fall break. No matter what time of day the diner is always full (by the way the diner is open 24 hours a day). On the way home from Florida during fall break we stopped at the diner at 2 am. I assumed that it would be desolate. However I was wrong because the place was booming. I had never seen so many people at a restaurant at 2 am. They do have the best pancakes. Their portions are huge. One time I got a side of home fries and it was a large plate full. I couldn't believe it. I don't understand why the diner is such a great place to be. It may have to do with the fact that greek owner is an adorable old man. It could have to do with the fact that the food is amazing. It could even be that the outside of the diner can draw you in. It looks like a diner with the neon lights and and the silver outside. It maybe their desserts that look almost to good to eat. A piece of cake could easily feed at least three people. The diner is just a place that you can't miss if you are in Atlanta. It's so good that Food Network has been there. Starbucks is still the best!!!

It's over

As of this Sunday I am officially no longer a member of Owensboro Dance Theatre's company. This may be shocking to some people but to others who know how unhappy I have been lately this isn't a surprise at all. I guess things have been bad for a while but Thursday night was definitely the last straw. It hasn't been the easy for me to try dancing with my stress fracture. However my dance teachers wanted me to continue dancing and to perform in the show, so I did what they wanted like I always do. Well Thursday night I left class at 6:00 because I had to film for ENL but they were going to keep rehearsing the tap piece. Well I found out that when I left some of the girls and one of the teachers (she is very immature) tried to blame the piece not looking good because of me. Earlier the teacher had made the comment about how I was the only person who knew what they were doing. So the teacher and the girls decided to throw me under the bus and shove me in the back because they said I was "limping" and I know that I wasn't. So to make a long story short that was the final straw. I couldn't stand to be treated like that any longer. So on Sunday I went to the studio and had a long conversation with Joy Johnson. I tried to explain to her that I still loved to dance but this studio was no longer an enjoyable place to be. She didn't listen to anything that I said but that's ok because three girls have already quit this year. Maybe she will eventually figure out that there is a problem.

Chick-fil-a + buffet = Amazing!!

Today I went to Chick-fil-a for the all A lunch. When I heard where the lunch was going to be I was excited because I love Chick-fil-a. However when they told us that it was going to be a buffet that was even more exciting. When we arrived there was a table set up for us. They had waffle fries and a huge tray of chicken nuggets. There were at least 500 chicken nuggets on that tray. Then to top it all of we got brownies for dessert. When I go to chick-fil-a I normally get the 8 pack chicken nuggets with fries. Well today I found out that I can eat more than just 8 chicken nuggets. Everyone started out with at least 12 chicken nuggets on our plate. Then one of the workers kept walking by telling us to eat more. You felt compelled to take more so you had to eat more. We had brownies for dessert and I always thought that the brownies looked just ok. I found out today that I was wrong. They were actually delicious. Then after we had dessert she came back around with the rest of the chicken nuggets trying to get us to eat the rest. Before we left we received little stuffed cows and these cows to put on our car's antenna. It was probably one of the best all A lunches.

A dysfunctional group

ADAPT and survive week is next week for AYL. This is the week when all of the different AYL groups go to various middle schools and perform skits. The skits show the effects of alcohol and drugs. The skits also talk about other subjects such as dating and school. Normally about five or six skits are performed in a show. Our group performs Tuesday and we have a total of two skits that are done. The two skits that are done aren't even that great. We have had since November to work on this skits. Our groups is probably one of the most dysfunctional AYL groups ever. We have really fun people in the group and I think that might be one of the problems. We seem to get distracted very easily and before we know it it is time for the meeting to end and we haven't even started working on the skit. We also have a few people who have a lot of different ideas. It's really great that they are creative but it can also be distracting. So many ideas are thrown out that we don't know which ones to choose. When we do our skits sometimes we have so much fun that we make drugs and alcohol seem like a lot fun and that is definitely not supposed to happen. We have a meeting for two hours on Sunday. I can only hope that everyone will feel a lot of pressure since it is two days until we perform. Hopefully our group will be able to stay on task and get something accomplished. I get to go to Starbucks after my group performs :)

Things that make me laugh

There are a lot of things that make me laugh. I feel like it isn't that difficult to make me laugh. However sometimes laughter isn't a good thing for me because I laugh in situations that aren't funny. For some odd reason in the most awkward or sad situations I start laughing. It isn't that I find the situation funny. I don't know why but I just laugh. For instances moments of silences for people that have died are never good for me. I just feel like everything is so awkward during a time of silence and somehow that makes me laugh. Maybe I feel like I need to laugh because I am a really loud person and I am not used to silence. Not only do I laugh in moments of silence but I also laugh when something really sad happens. Instead of crying I sometimes laugh. For example when one of my really good friends at dance quit I didn't know what to say or do. So when I was telling other dancers what happened I started laughing hysterically. It's not that the it was funny that she quit but I just didn't know what else to do. I guess laughter is something I do when I am really upset or confused. One time at dance I was so frustrated with a teacher that I started crying but then two seconds later I was laughing at the situation. Once again I wasn't laughing because it was funny. I was laughing because I was so upset that I didn't know what to do. So I guess you could say that pretty much anything could make me laugh whether it is happy, funny, or even sad.

Go away snow!!!

So I am hoping that these last few snow days we had are our last! I always enjoy the first few snow days. It is always exciting to get to miss school but I like my snow days spaced out a little bit more. I like a snow day here and there. I don't want three snow days in a row like we had last week. At this point in time we are already going to school in June why not miss a few more days. Snow days are good to catch up on sleep since I hardly ever get to sleep in with dance on Saturday. Snow days are also good because I get to catch upon on my DVR and watch all of my shows that I don't have time to watch during the week. The only other good thing about a snow day is that the next day that you go back to school there is normally a delay. I like delays sometimes more than snow days because I get to sleep in but I don't have to make the day up at the end of June. Delays also allow me enough time to stop at Chick-fil-a and get breakfast. The only downfall to snow days are that we have to make them up at the end of the school year. That is a big downfall because when it comes May I am ready to get out of school. I don't mind making up a few days but when school has to go into June that is when I start getting a little annoyed. So lets just hope that the snow goes away and there aren't any more snow days! I <3 Starbucks!

JOT is less than a month away!!!

So you are probably wondering what JOT is? JOT stands for Jazz on Tap. This is a dance festival that takes place on the first weekend of March in Atlanta. It is probably the most exciting part of dancing besides when we travel to Chicago. JOT is always a good time for all of the dancers to get to spend time together outside of the dance studio. It is about three weekends away and everyone is already becoming really excited. Not only do we get to perform a few dances at JOT but we also get to take some really amazing master classes. The dance classes are always fun because they are taught by some really amazing dance teachers. The combinations that we are taught in class are always really amazing. I can still remember parts of some dances that I learned three or four years ago. I have to be honest the best part of JOT would probably have to be the little bit of shopping that we get to do before we have to dance. It is always nice to get to have a little stress relief before we have to perform the next day. The second best part of JOT would have to be when we go out to eat after performing. When the show has ended it is about 11:00 at night and the restaurant stays open just for us every year. Even though we are always exhausted from performing and taking class we always seem able to find some energy to enjoy the rest of the night. It is always sad when we have to get up the next morning and travel back to Owensboro so that we can make it home it time for rehearsal at 12:00 that afternoon. Even though it is an exhausting weekend I can't wait. Starbucks is the best :)

High School Musicale

This weekend I had choreography for High School Musicale K-12 (Yes that is the name of our show this year). It was a great weekend even though I had to dance all of the time. It was just a great experience that everyone at the studio needed. Lately it has been kind of stressful at the studio. With people quitting, girls having to leave because of anorexia, and the teachers being in horrible moods dancing has been much fun lately. This past weekend showed everyone how much fun dancing really can be. It was a weekend without drama and that is unusual for our company. The choreographers from Atlanta were very encouraging and showed us that dancing could be fun again. It was also great to get to partner with male dancers. Since there aren't any male dancers in our company we hardly ever get the experience to dance with a partner. It is always exciting when we get to try new lifts. Even though High School Musical isn't the greatest show that we have ever done because it doesn't have the most difficult dancing. It will certainly be one of the most exciting and up beat show that we have ever done. That's all that really matters is how much we enjoy dancing and not the difficulty of the steps. Starbucks is amazing!!!!

Choreography

This weekend is going to be really hectic because I have to learn choreography for the second act of In Concert which is High School Musicale k-12. Marcus and Annie come in every year to teach us the choreography for the second act. They also bring in other male dancers that will perform with us in March. Even though Marcus is probably about fifty years old he still performs in the show every year. It amazes me that he can still do a jazz split. This weekend is always crazy because we have to learn a whole second act of a show in just three days. He always starts out with a different idea then what we actually end up doing. Even though the choreography isn't that difficult is still a lot to try and remember in just one weekend. Another bad thing about trying to learn everything in one weekend is that we have to be at the studio a lot. I have to be there today 4-8, tomorrow 9-6, and Sunday 9-3. That is about 18 hours of dancing in just one weekend. It is going to be especially difficult this year because of my foot injury. I will only be able to dance a few hours at a time and then I will have to walk around in my boot for a little bit. This year we are doing High School Musicale (yes it is spelled musicale not musical) which is a combination of all three high school musical movies. So it will definitely be interesting. I <3 Starbucks!!!!

Winter

Winter us not my favorite season. Weather in the wintertime is just cold snowy and bleak. When it snows you can't really do that much besides build a snowman or go sledding and I don't really like to do those things. While I am stuck inside on a snowy day I like to pass the time by watching t.v. and drinking coffee. Who wouldn't like to do that? Waffles are also good for breakfast on a snowy day. Well, there is one good thing about winter and that is snow days. Waking up to school being cancelled can be quite exciting. When you get to sleep late and do nothing all day. Who isn't glad to get a day off from school every now and then? While snow days may be fun that is really the only positive thing about winter. When everything is dead and it is freezing cold outside it makes me want to stay inside all day. Winter is cold. Winter is boring. Winter just really isn't that great.

Pointless Snow Day

I was kind of disappointed that there was a snow day on Tuesday. I was excited when my mom came in my room to turn off my alarm because there was a one hour delay. I like delays because I get to sleep in but we don't have to make them up as long as we don't have to many delays. So I got up at 6:50 which is one hour later than I normally do and I took a shower. After I got out of the shower I started drying my hair. My mom then tells me that school is cancelled. I was extremely disappointed that school was cancelled because I was already awake. There was no point of having a snow day if I couldn't sleep in late. However since I was awake I went ahead and babysat the kids that I normally do. Since I was already awake I figured that I might as well do something productive. Even though babysitting isn't my favorite thing to do it is a good way to make money. The morning started out kind of hectic but it ended up not being to bad of a day at all. Even though I enjoyed my snow day hopefully the next snow day I will get to sleep in. A piece of advice: Starbucks is perfect on a snowy day. :)

Dancing Again

Yesterday I danced for the first time in about 3 weeks. I was so excited when I walked into the dance studio and got to tell my dance teachers the news. When I walked into the office to tell Mrs.J the news the first thing she saw was that my boot was still on. She thought that I was going to have bad news but she was relieved to hear that I was going to be able to take a class. I still have to wear the boot all day but I can dance for a few hours at night. Hopefully soon I will be back dancing full force again. When I started warming up with everyone it felt so foreign. It had only been three weeks but that is like forever in the dancing world. I could tell that I was some what behind because I didn't know any of the combinations. I didn't get frustrated though because I was just happy to be dancing. I was still nervous the whole time that I was dancing though because I was afraid that my foot would start hurting. I was also afraid that I was injuring my foot more even though the doctor said it was ok for me to dance some. I got through almost all of the class before I had to stop because my foot started hurting. After class I realized how much I had missed some of the girls at the studio and how I was glad that I was able to dance. Starbucks is amazing!!!

Out of options

When something you loved so much becomes something that is unbearable what should you do? That is a question that I have been asking myself a lot lately. I still love to dance but there has been so much going on at the studio( teachers telling us how awful we are, telling us that we are fat, and nothing ever being good enough for them) that I don't know what to do. Everyone has tried talking to the teacher that is mainly in charge and she does nothing. Even though she knows that things are going on that shouldn't be she doesn't do anything about it. She continues to blame the dancers for all of the problems. She also continues taking up for a 29 year old who she says is just immature. How is that possible when a 17 year old knows something is wrong but a 29 year old is to immature to understand? All of the dancers are very frustrated about what has been going on at the studio and we had done all we thought was possible. However someone did something yesterday that hadn't been done yet. After jazz class she told Mrs. J (the main dance teacher) that she needed to quit. Now I know that you are probably thinking that she is a quitter but she isn't at all. As she was packing up her locker after class all I could say was that I respect you. She is no longer going to have to spend her time at place that isn't happy anymore. She paved the way for all of us to stand up for ourselves. Even though she is going to be happier she is going to be missed. The company has lost two dancers in two weeks. Who will be next? I <3 Starbucks!!!!!!

Ugly words

There aren't really that many words that bother me. However there are a few words that my dad says that I can not stand. The first word is nuke. I don't know why but every time I hear that word I cringe. I just don't like the way it sounds. I don't understand someone has to say you can just nuke that in the microwave. I believe that it sounds a lot better when someone says that you can warm that up in the microwave. You can even say that you can reheat that in the microwave. I think any word would be better than nuke. There is another word that my dad says that I can not stand at all. This is probably one of my biggest pet peeves is when someone uses this word. Actually, "the word" isn't even a word at all. It is defiantly not in Webster's English Dictionary. The word is....warsh. I don't understand why my dad can't simply say wash. I correct him every time that he says warsh. I just think it sounds so countryish. When he says warsh it makes him sound like he lives on a farm in the middle of nowhere and can't pronounce words correctly. The whole family has tried to get him to correct it but he is stubborn and just won't do it. I guess nuke and warsh are the only two words that I find really ugly. I know for sure that Starbucks isn't an ugly word it is a beautiful one!!!

Anorexia

Anorexia is a stereotype that many people associate to ballerinas. However that stereotype is usually wrong. To be a dancer you don't have to be anorexic. Actually dieting isn't really encouraged in our company because the dance teachers fear that we would take it to the extreme. One dance teacher does encourage it though but she is rather larger herself. I believe that she encourages us to be skinny just because she can't be. Every time someone loses a few pounds she comments about how good that girl is looking. Most of the older girls don't like it when she comments about others weight because we have seen how anorexia has affected other girls. We have had one girl who has had to take a whole semester off after she had lost about twenty to thirty pounds. I would think that after that has happened to one girl that everyone would learn from her mistakes but I am wrong. Thursday everyone comes to dance thinking that it was going to be a normal day but we were give some awful news. One of the freshman girls had to drop out of dance because she was anorexic and was going to have to be treated. This affected our whole company because now she was going to have to be replaced in all of the dances. That's not what we cared about though we couldn't believe that she wasn't going to be in the company anymore. I just can't imagine that a person would feel so bad about themselves that they would feel the need to starve themselves. I don't have to worry about me though because I would never starve myself for dance. Starbucks is amazing!!!

I've got a boot.....

So today in case no one has noticed I am wearing a very fashionable boot. It is probably one of the most uncomfortable things that I have ever had to wear. It adds about to ten pounds to my left leg. I feel like i have this huge weight that i have to carry around. Almost everyone has asked me what happened. I am very glad that they are concerned but I have had to say that I stress fractured my foot while dancing like a zillion times. I think it might have been easier just to wear a t-shirt that said I fractured my foot while dancing and now I've got a boot with an arrow pointing to the boot. Probably the worst part of being injured is that I can't dance. I have enjoyed the time off but I miss all the girls at dance. I feel like am missing out on a lot at the dance studio. It is also really hard for when I do go to dance that I just have to sit and watch. I just want to be able to get up and dance. I never thought I would say this but I am tired of sitting around and doing nothing. Another plus of the boot is that if we have fake injury day for Spirit Week, I won't have to fake an injury. That is really the only positive thing about the boot. However I try not to complain because I know that it could be worse. I could be stuck with a case that I can't take off at all. Starbucks is amazing!!!!!!!!!

Snow Day

I really hope that there is a Snow Day tomorrow. I can't believe that I am saying this right after we have just gotten back from a 2 week break. However I still have a lot of sleep that I need to catch up on. It would also be nice to have a break before I have to go to dance that day even though I am not dancing because of my foot injury. Snow days are just always so exciting because you don't have to do anything besides drink hot chocolate or preferably coffee and watch tv. If we don't get a snow day a 2 hour delay would be really nice. At least I would get to sleep in a little bit. Actually a 2 hour delay would be better because then we wouldn't have to make up that lost time and the school day would go by really fast. I don't really care whether we have a snow day or a two hour delay I just hope that it is something. I am just afraid that everyone is anticipating a snow day and everyone is going to be disappointed when we wake up in the morning and there isn't any snow on the ground. So I am going to do my homework tonight because I know that if I don't then it won't snow at all. Snow days are perfect for Starbucks!!!!

Anxiety

I didn't really realize the importance of my feet until now. I use them everyday to dance. I never thought what I would do if I got hurt. Even though I haven't been enjoying dance as much lately I don't want the decision for me not to dance to be made for me. However it might be because I might have a stress fracture in my foot. It has been bothering me for a while but I just assumed that over Christmas break that I would get some rest and that it would be fine. Even though throughout Christmas break it had been bothering me I just ignored it hoping that it would get better. Yesterday I realized just how bad my foot was. As I was dancing sharp pains kept shooting through my foot. It finally got so bad that I had to tell my dance teacher. She said that I might have a stress fracture and that I should get it checked out. My heart just dropped because if I have fractured my foot then I can't dance. So I don't know what I am going to do if my foot is hurt. My life would be drastically changed and the decision whether or not to quit dance would pretty much be made for me. So I am just keeping my fingers crossed that everything is ok but I know that it can't be. Coffee is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!