Nutcracker

Nutcracker casting was posted a few weeks ago. There acutally weren't that many suprises in the casting this year. Lexie and I had fantasy casted our Nutcracker a week before casting was posted. We assigned a point value to each part and if you guessed the girl with that part correctly you got the points. So when casting was posted Lexie copied all of the parts down on a piece of paper and brought it to school. We added up all of our points and I won! Even though it was only by three points I still won, but that wasn't really a good thing because I didn't give myself any of the parts that I actually wanted. It was kind of disappointing for me to look at the list because this year I didn't get any parts that I hadn't had before. Don't get me wrong I have always had really good parts because I have always danced with girls that are a year older than me. This year that has come to bite me in the butt because now all of the other girls are seniors and they get parts just because they are seniors. They don't care about me this year because I am just a junior. I just have to be patient and wait til next year I guess. There are three parts in snow, snow queen, snow princesses, and snow fairies. The seniors are snow queens and snow princesses and I am left to be a snow fairy. No one can understand why I am not a snow princess. Everyone thinks that it isn't fair except the one senior who is a snow princess but they have only been dancing for three years. So I am stuck with girls who are in the eighth grade and this is their first year in snow. They have no clue what they are doing. The worst part is that the dance teacher puts me in the front of everything by the snow princesses. It is almost as if she is trying to make up for me not being a princess. Why would she do that? If she feels guilty for not making me one then why did she make me a fairy? I would rather be in the back then stand up in the front and watch other people do what I should be doing. It just not fair but dance has taught me many times that life isn't fair. The first time I didn't get a part that I wanted because "I was to short" I cried my eyes out and when I didn't make company the first time I just didn't understand. However I haven't cried a tear since because you just have to be strong persevere. I am just going to have to wait until my senior year so that I can shine. I just hope that I can make it through this year. I love coffee sooooo much!!!